Bad start, bad day.

One of my reason having this blog is to improve my writing skill and eventually I started to write in English. I am not trying to be a smart-ass but could someone tell me what is the other method that I can use to improve my English?

In order for me to be able to write well in English, I start to read english books, listen to their conversation and try to think using english words. As it is today, I have started to think english words when I'm trying to write something. But I have lived 20 years as a Malay and it is my primary language. Of course my english is still not perfect. In fact I know my english might be like a rubbish to some people especially when it comes to grammar. I admit that.

I dont give a shit about what people actually think about my grammar because I know I'm still learning. I'm struggling to be exact. However, hearing words from one of your brothers about trying not to write in english because your english is rubbish is really make you feel something that you didn't know you can even feel.

It's not like I anti with people criticise me or commenting me but yeah, hearing people say that you should only write in english only if you good at it is not something you want to hear actually. It's alright if someone say to you your grammar is bad, you might need to improve on that part but to the extend saying you should stop write in english, wrong advice mate.

Anyway, I dont really care about it anymore. I'll just keep write in english because everything need a practice. Just like to be excel in ibadah, you just have to practice to reach the level of enjoying and feel like a freedom when you do it.

Roger and out.

Efforts is what matter.

Bismillah.

Being an engineering student teaches me a lot. Probably the same case to other courses as well. But one thing that I have learnt in engineering is how to work with limited resources.

You have an assignment that required certain softwares but you do not posses it?

Simple, you just have to accomplish it without using the software.

You have to make a project but the budget is not on your side?

You just have to work on the project to fit with your budget.

And recently, I just found a game for android users which called Apparatus and I told you guys, it’s a must game for engineers, Mechanical engineering to be exact. For this game, you have a ball located somewhere on the screen and your mission is to build a mechanical instrument using the resources that provided to move the ball into a basket. It’s really cool and mind challenging.

My point here is not promoting the game (not like I got an incentive if people play the game anyway) but my point is being an engineering student really helps me to think creative and try to solve the problem with the available resources.

Having said all of this, it actually makes me think about how our life works. Life as a muslim of course.

“Kalaulah aku ada duit banyak macam dia, mesti aku dah tolong orang miskin kat dunia ni”

“Dulu parents aku tak ajar pulak pasal benda2 islam ni. Dia tu lainla. Parents orang usrah”

“Kalau aku tak ambik course aku sekarang yang mega busy ni, aku rasa aku da involve da dengan aktiviti-aktiviti usrah ni”

“Kalau aku gempak buat video, banyak da siap video untuk umat Islam nih”

“Sahabat dulu boleh la iman diorang mantap, Nabi ada dengan diorang. Kalau la aku hdup masa tu kan best”

And the list can go on and on. Trust me.

We can obviously say all this stuff and no one actually want to stop you from ranting about how bad your life is. No one actually cares.

The last statement is the best. The one that says that might be forgetting that by living with Muhammad S.A.W. doesn’t guarantee you will become sahabah. You might end up being the Abu Jahal instead! And the same thing applies with other situations as well. Who can actually guarantee he will become the hamba yang bersyukur if he is given the situation that he wished for?

One thing for sure is Allah will not ask us in akhirat about what will we do for a given situation. What Allah will ask is, what have you done is your given life? No matter how shitty your life is or how good your life is, what Allah care is how do you make use of what’s given in your life to accomplish our mission as a human in this world.

But Allah is not mean. Allah is fair to all his slaves;

Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity. It will have [the consequence of] what [good] it has gained, and it will bear [the consequence of] what [evil] it has earned. "Our Lord, do not impose blame upon us if we have forgotten or erred. Our Lord, and lay not upon us a burden like that which You laid upon those before us. Our Lord, and burden us not with that which we have no ability to bear. And pardon us; and forgive us; and have mercy upon us. You are our protector, so give us victory over the disbelieving people."(2:286)

And of course Allah will not only see the end product like human does, He will actually see what kind of effort that we put on it. If we failed to accomplish a certain task, e.g. try to make dakwah to our friend and he just doesn’t want to listen to us, and Allah see that we put enough if not extra effort on it, for sure Allah will reward us.

So when you meet those who disbelieve [in battle], strike [their] necks until, when you have inflicted slaughter upon them, then secure their bonds, and either [confer] favor afterwards or ransom [them] until the war lays down its burdens. That [is the command]. And if Allah had willed, He could have taken vengeance upon them [Himself], but [He ordered armed struggle] to test some of you by means of others. And those who are killed in the cause of Allah - never will He waste their deeds. (47:4)

In conclusion, as a human we can’t run from problem and imperfection in our life. There will be obstacle here and there. And being a human, we can make a choice whether to make full of the imperfection in our life to fulfil our goal as a slave or we can just sit down and whining about our problem in life. You are free to make the choice as it is your life but bear in my mind that even though it’s our life but it’s own by Allah and always remember that our choice will determined us being in heaven or hell.

I am a Palestinian from Malaysia.

Bismillah.

Junior: Eh, bile eh nak beli tiket balek Malaysia? Sekarang dah ada offer ke?

Penulis: (tersenyum) Relaxlah bro. Awal lagi ni. Tak habis 1st sem lagi dah fikir balek dah ke?

Junior: (Tersengih-sengih) Tak de la. Bosan la duduk UK nih. Rindu Malaysia ni. Makanan, family and cuaca obviously.

Penulis: Haha, fair enough. Selalu orang beli time bulan 2-3 camtu kot. £550 tu kira ok dah harga tu. If you got cheaper than that, that's a bargain. Oh, £550 tu dari Manchester.

Lucu hati saya bila perbualan ini berlaku dan setiap tahun perbualan ini akan terjadi. Malah saya rasa mungkin ada sesetengah pelajar yang sudah mula memikirkan untuk pulang ke Malaysia sebelum mereka berlepas dari KLIA lagi.

Walaupun sudah membiasakan diri di UK, rasa rindu untuk kembali ke Malaysia tetap tidak hilang.

Walaupun UK menawarkan 1001 kemajuan yang mungkin tidak terdapat di Malaysia, perasaan rindu itu tetap ada.

Walaupun UK menawarkan pengangkutan awam yang lebih efficient berbanding ktm dan bas di Malaysia, rasa rindu tetap menebal di hati..

Walaupun UK menawarkan harga anggur dan epal yang lebih affordable, rasa rindu itu tetap ada.

Baik yang junior atau senior, sama sahaja ragamnya.

Mungkin secara fitrahnya, manusia memang ingin pulang ke tempat asal mereka walaupun sebentar. Atas sebab yang sama, rakyat Malaysia tetap pulang ke kampung masing-masing pada hari raya walaupun masing-masing sudah mengetahui yang mereka berkemungkinan tinggi akan terperangkap di jalan raya.

Namun, pernahkah kita mengetahui atau mengingati akan nasib saudara kita di kem pelarian Palestin di Lubnan?

Atau nasib saudara kita di Gaza atau Tebing Barat?

Mereka juga manusia sama seperti kita.

Mereka juga sering merindui akan kampung halaman mereka sama seperti kita.

Tetapi mereka dinafikan hak mereka untuk pulang ke tempat asal mereka!

Cuba kita bayangkan apa yang akan kita buat sekiranya permohonan untuk pulang beraya kita ditolak dan terpaksa bertugas di pagi raya?

Kita akan sedih dan sesetengah orang akan menangis kesedihan tidak dapat mencium tangan ibu di pagi raya.

Tetapi harus diingat kita masih berpeluang untuk pulang ke kampung halaman pada tahun hadapan atau mungkin minggu seterusnya.

Pelarian Palestin sudah berada di tempat buangan lebih dari 50 tahun!

I don't think we can actually imagine how they felt for the past 50 years.

On top of that, being in refugee camp in Lubnan is not like us living in UK.

Tahukah anda, pelarian Palestin di Lubnan diharamkan untuk bekerja dalam 72 jenis pekerjaan?

Tahukah anda, pelarian Palestin di Lubnan tidak diiktiraf sebagai rakyat Lubnan walaupun lahir di Lubnan?

Tahukah anda, pelarian Palestin di Lubnan tidak dibenarkan untuk memiliki sebarang property di Lubnan?

Tahukah anda, pelarian Palestin di Lubnan tidak dibenarkan untuk ke selatan Lubnan walaupun hanya untuk melihat tanah air mereka yang dijajah?

Tahukah anda, banyak lagi perkara yang dilarang atas mereka oleh kerajaan Lubnan?

Cuba bayangkan, bagaimana perasaan kita sekiranya Malaysia dijajah dan kita terpaksa lari ke Thailand.

Kemudian hak kita sebagai manusia dinafikan.

Apa yang akan kita buat?

Dan orang-orang yang menggelar diri mereka saudara kita tidak memberi kita bantuan yang amat kita perlukan.

Apa yang akan kita rasa?

Seorang muslim adalah saudara bagi Musim yang lain, tidak boleh dia menzaliminya dan menjerumuskannya ke dalam kebinasaan

-Sahih al-Bukhari, Kitab al-Mazhalim, hadis no. 2442.-

But, talk is cheap.

Semua orang boleh menulis di blog.

Semua orang boleh bercakap tentang masalah ini.

We need to walk the talk!

Untuk itu Misi Kasih Palestin, Sheffield Malaysian Student Association, PMPMS dan KuSheff telah bergabung untuk menjayakan sharing session oleh Dr Zin Kandar yang pernah ke Gaza sebanyak 2 kali. Program ini juga bertujuan untuk mengumpul dana yang akan disalurkan pada pelarian Palestin di Lubnan untuk membantu mereka yang basically tidak mendapat bantuan dari mana-mana pihak.

Do spend some of your time and attend this session. Please don't forget to bring some extra money to infaq for our brothers and sisters. And if you want to infaq right now, you can always do that by referring to this web.

Aerospace engineering, an anecdote.

Bismillah.

Last week probably one of the busiest weeks in my schedule this semester. I got almost 3 hours of lectures everyday (usually its only 2 hours per day for me. lol) The reason for this hectic week is because we got an external lecturer who will give us a little peek of what an airworthiness engineer job-scope and how to get there.

I'm pretty sure a lot of people who read this article don't have a tiny clue what airworthiness engineer is. Even me, the one who's taking Aerospace Engineering, only know about the existence of this type of engineer after those sessions. Basically airworthiness engineer is the filter between the airplane company (Airbus, Boeing and etc) and the authority. So in order for a plane to be allowed to fly, they have to get a certification from the authority and airworthiness engineer is the one that is responsible to ensure the airplane gets the certification.

To become an airworthiness engineer is not an easy task to be honest with you. You have to have a complete understanding of an airplane (seems familiar? yeah, I know it a bit similar with being a true Muslim where you have to have a complete understanding of Islam rather than only a part of it). By saying that, it means that you must not only have a good understanding of certain part of aircraft (say aerodynamic, propulsion, avionic and etc) but you must have a good understanding of the each part and let me tell you guys, there are lot of parts in an aircraft. Not only you have to master each field of aircraft, you also have to have a good communication skill and soft skills as well (now it started to feel like it kind of similar with being a dai'e/preacher).

I told you guys that it is not easy to become one and it takes like 10 years of experience to be a airworthiness engineer and I guess that's also the same with being a true muslim. You can't be a true muslim in just one month or even one year. There are lot to learn and experience. But the question is, just how many of us want to learn and experience all the things in Islam?

And some of the Muslims have spent 5-8 years learning about Islam in deep, maybe they graduate from one of the top university like Al-Azhar but they still lack in communication skill and soft skills. By lacking this two important skills really affecting them from being a dai'e. Just look at the reality. Just how many those who call themselves ustaz/ustazah/imam in Malaysia really have the ability to change those people around them?

On the other hand, there are some peoples who specialize in different field from Islam (engineer, doctor, etc) but still manage to learn about other aspects of Islam and not just know how to pray and fasting! And they also have those two important skills to be a dai'e. That my friend, what we call quality!

One difference though between being an airworthiness engineer and being a true Muslim, is that one is by choice and the latter is not really a choice, for a Muslim it is. As an engineer you can always choose to gear up your game and get such a prestige type of job or you can just stick with your job and get well-paid for it. As a Muslim, who believed in existence of heaven and hell, it's not really a choice, in fact it is a must! We have to gear up our game and head to be a true Muslim and a dai'e as well (being a true Muslim and dai'e is not a sequential event. It just like chicken and egg story. We never know which one coming first but both of it exist.).

I'm not trying to be strict or harsh by saying as a Muslim we not have a choice but it is in the Quran afterall;

And [mention, O Muhammad], when your Lord said to the angels, "Indeed, I will make upon the earth a successive authority." They said, "Will You place upon it one who causes corruption therein and sheds blood, while we declare Your praise and sanctify You?" Allah said, "Indeed, I know that which you do not know." (2:30)

The road to glorify Islam in this world is not easy.

The road to glorify Islam inside each person is even harder.

I never said it is easy.

Nobody does.

But believe me,

Being in heaven = worth the hardship.

disclaimer : Im not saying all of ustaz/ustazah/Imam bad at spreading Islam in Malaysia.

Sekarang musim bola.

Bismillah.

Sekarang musim bola.

Gara-gara final sukan SEA di Jakarta.

Kawan yang kaki bangku pun naik teruja.

Apatah lagi saya yang memang hebat main bola.

Tetapi kali ini bukan niat saya ingin bercerita tentang Malaysia vs Indonesia.

Tidak banyak pun yang hendak diceritakan tentang permainan yang mendebarkan kedua-dua penyokong.

Bukan niat saya juga ingin menceritakan kehebatan diri sendiri bermain yang tidak tumpah seperti Cristiano Ronaldo.

Pembaca boleh melihat sendiri bagaimana hebatnya Ronaldo dan itulah saya.

Niat di hati ingin bercerita tentang kisah dua pemain Barcelona.

Seorang sudah keluar dan seorang masih bermaharaja lela.

Namun kedua-dua masih mendapat tempat di hati para peminat bola.

Ronaldinho dan Messi pemain yang saya hendak cerita.

Ronaldinho seorang yang laju dan penuh dengan gerakan muslihat yang bergaya.

Membuat penonton terbeliak mata.

Apatah lagi pasukan lawan yang hanya mampu ternganga.

Namun kehebatan hanya bertahan 1-2 tahun sahaja. (around 2006)

Messi pemain yang kecil dan lincah sekali gayanya.

Skill yang dimiliki biasa sahaja.

Hanya bergerak lincah dicelah-celah pertahanan sambil bola seolah-olah melekat di kaki.

Namun Messi tidak pernah gagal menyerlah dari 2008 sehingga kini.

Dari kaca mata manusia sudah pasti Messi lebih berharga berbanding Ronaldinho.

Gayanya biasa tetapi bertahan lama.

Sedangkan dari pandangan mata manusia yang hina pun lebih gemar pada konsistensi,

Apatah lagi dari pandangan yang Maha Esa.

Amal yang sedikit dan biasa lebih digemari Allah.

Berbanding amal yang banyak tetapi sebentar cuma.

Masih ingat kisah Ronaldinho dan Messi?

Pemain bola sepak sehebat Messi pun masih perlu datang ke pusat latihan.

Apakah pusat latihan kita untuk mengekalkan konsistensi amal?

Usrah cara saya.

Cara anda bagaimana?

Jangan menjadi Ronaldinho yang hebat tetapi terkulai di tengah jalan kegemilangan.

Dark

While i'm still a kid, i used to be afraid of a dark places. But it's normal wasnt it? Lot of stories being told about how scary dark places is. Sometimes there will be a white figure appear in front of you and sometimes some scary thing will creeps coming to you. Scary wasn't it?

Even without those stories, i still think the feeling will still be there. Even after this many years and i know all the stories are made up to scare children, i still got some lingering feelings when i have to go to a dark place alone. But ego as a man always help me facing those situation.

From all of this, it make me thinking what is actually I am afraid of? Is it the darkness or something else? Or is it just feeling of being alone that afraid me?

I will never know for certain. I only know the feeling is there which make me think that this feeling is a nature for me and maybe a nature for human being. Which bring me to think that perhaps what i really afraid of is not the darkness but the unknown is what scared me.

You will never know what hiding in the darkness. It might be a dangerous animal, a poisonous insect, a ghost, a criminal or maybe nothing in there.

And god, in my case Allah knows well our nature. Well He is the one that created us afterall. Allah stated that in rukun iman that we have to believe to the unknown thing (perkara ghaib) . The idea is that we will afraid to the unknown and result in us obey to Allah.

However, even the idea sound so beautiful and practical there are lot of people still not afraid of Allah. They still not afraid commit sin even though hell and heaven is the unknown thing that by nature we afraid of. Even angels are always following us around every moment and we really don't know about them but crime are still everyday.

What happen?

Human should be afraid of the unknown by nature.

It still unknown for human about their ending. Either heaven or hell.

It still unknown for human WHEN they are will die.

It really puzzling me what really occur in other people that did not afraid of the BIGGEST unknown in their life. Instead they really afraid about insignificant matter like who will they married to or what kind of job they will get after they graduate.

It's not like i'm not thinking about the same thing but to think about insignificant stoff until forgetting much more important stuff is not making sense at all!!

Fair enough. They might have their own problem or they are just being ignorance.

Note to myself;
Never told a ghost stories to my children instead told a story about the REAL BIG unknown to them.

Testing

Yeah, just got a new phone. I might, I repeat, I might be able to post regularly after this.

Oh I love creating excuses.

We Are a Muslim Please

Just finished reading this book and it is absolutely amazing. How the writer bring up the issue of identity conflict between British, Muslim and Pakistani. I've read a lot about this conflict but she's the one that really bring the full understanding in me.

Well maybe I can say it's not really practical for us who are Malay Muslim in Malaysia but it really help us in having understanding about what is racist really meant which is vital for every Malaysian in Malaysia. Maybe a little bit of exaggeration here because you cant really got the full idea just by reading only one book but you will have the idea on how it feel living in others country and the dilemma that they have.



This book will be the next on my definitely-will-be-buying-but-God-knows-when-will-be-readed list.hahaha

Dilemma Malaysia

Bismillah,

Well, I'm back in Malaysia. Hot-and-lots-of-mosquitoes Malaysia.

The upside of this time in Malaysia is my niece is staying at my house since her mother who is my sister still recovering from giving birth to my cousin. Yes, the one that I know a week after he was borned.=_="

Anyway, this is happening yesterday;

Niece : Paman nak pergi mane? (well I am javanese if you guys havent realised it yet)
me : Pergi masjid
Niece : Amia nak ikut?
me : Pergi tanya mama
Niece : Mama, Amia nak ikut pergi masjid
Mama: tak buleh, Amia duduk rumah je.
me : Esok paman bawak Amia eh?

I dont intend to lie to her when I said those line to her but after thoroughly thinking about it, I might have to break my saying to her.

Well, if you guys didnt know, lot of masjid in Malaysia are adopting unfriendly system towards kids. The kids have to be at different saff(line) from the adults. Sometimes there are mosques even put a signboard to limit the kids from entering the so-called adults zone. I remember last year I attend one of the talk in one mosque near with my house and the imam strongly said that it is not allowed for kids to be at same saff with the adults. It will break the saff. I regret myself until this moment for not having balls to argue with him last year.

This rule actually the culprit that makes the kids playing around and making noises while the adults are praying. Once the imam have started the prayer, the kids will go playing and when it about to finish, all the kids quickly get back to the saff and do tahiyat akhir. You guys remember about this right? This is what we use to do after all.

Daripada Anas bin Malik katanya neneknya, Mulaikah telah menjemput Rasulullah s.a.w. untuk makan makanan yang disediakannya. Lalu Rasulullah s.a.w. makan sebahagaian darinya kemudian bersabda: “Bangunlah, saya akan mengimamkan sembahyang kamu. Lalu saya mendapatkan sekeping tikar kami yang berwarna hitam kerana sudah lama digunakan kemudian saya merenjiskannya dengan air. Rasulullah s.a.w. berdiri, seorang anak yatim berdiri bersama saya dan nenek di belakang kami. Baginda bersembahyang mengimami kami sebanyak dua rakaat.”
-diriwayatkan oleh Imam al-Bukhari (nombor 822)-

That should be enough to state my point. With that, I end my rambling.

p/s : ape la aku nak cakap malam ni dekat niece aku nih. adoyai~

Bersih 2.0 = trafic jam?

Bismillah,

Hangat sungguh 2-3 hari ini dengan traffic jam dekat Kuala Lumpur. Oh, unnecessary traffic jam to be precise. There have been uproar before this about Bersih 2.0 will make Kuala Lumpur congested but I think all of us can see what exactly bring the traffic jam.

Living in UK for almost 2 years and have travel quite a lot (inside UK of course), I have to say I'm impressed with the local police methods to control the behaviour of the driver. Tak pernah pulak nampak ada roadblock dekat UK ni but still people getting their ticket for violating the law.

I completely understand is some murderer is escaping and police have to make roadblock to catch them but sometimes (like right now), roadblock in the peak period at Kuala Lumpur? You got to be kidding me.

Sometimes I hoping that Police department can act separately with the government so that their act will be solely about justice but who am I try to kid right now, peoples love to have power. They crave about power and having police department in their side is just the right thing to have to fulfill their lust.

But living is about hoping. We hope, pray and work for it. InsyaAllah Malaysia will be free.

summer 11

Bismillah,

It almost a month my summer break has started. Lot of things have happened.

As for now, I'll spend lot of my time in Manchester with my 'brothers' and since i have nothing else to do, might as well update this blog frequently.

Till this time, I have to say my holiday is quite good. I have finisned read TWO really good books. Both written by Mitch Albom, Tuesday with Morrie and For one more day. I really recommend you guys to read these two books, totally worth it. The next book to be read still undecided but it might be books from Tariq Ramadhan, Following the footstep of prophet(something like that).

Sorry for the babbling. I just too bored right now and I'm not really in the mood to talk about the awesomeness of STCUK (summer camp). Anyway I think this blog will be loaded with entries after this. Till next time.

I long for winter

Where I can eat as much as I want and the blame is totally on the cold temperature.

Bersih 2.0

Assalamualaykum,

Jujurnya, saya sangat menantikan tarikh keramat ini. Pada hari itu, kita akan dapat melihat gelagat pelbagai lapisan orang di Malaysia. Atau lebih tepat saya katakan kita boleh melihat tahap kematangan dan ketelusan pelbagai lapisan orang di Malaysia. Dari pemandu teksi, peniaga gerai sehingga Yang Dipertuan Agong.

Yes, I really want to see their reaction.

8 tuntutan Bersih 2.0;

1. Bersihkan Senarai Undi
2. Mereformasikan Undi Pos
3. Gunakan Dakwah Kekal
4. Masa Kempen Minima 21 Hari
5. Akses Media Yang Bebas Dan Adil
6. Kukuhkan Institusi Awam
7. Hentikan Rasuah
8. Hentikan Politik Kotor

Sehingga hari ini ramai yang menentang, dan ramai juga yang menyokong. Saya masih belum dapat faham kenapa ada orang menentang. Bukanlah saya tidak dapat membaca alasan-alasan yang diberikan cuma saya hanya tidak dapat menerima alasan yang diberi.

Jalan sesak?
Mengganggu perniagaan-perniagaan kecil?

Come on, you need to try better than that one. Kalau ada sesiapa yang membaca entry ini dan ingin cuba meyakinkan diri yang hina ini tentang keburukan Bersih 2.0, please do. Saya sangat ingin memahami apa yang anda semua fikirkan.

Bukan tidak pernah Malaysia membuat perarakan sempena hari kemerdekaan.
Bukan tidak pernah Malaysia membuat Le Tour de Langkawi di Kuala Lumpur.

Tidak pula terjadi isu mengganggu jalan sesak. tidak pula timbul isu menjejaskan pendapatan peniaga-peniaga kecil. Pemandu teksi tidak pula bising.

Polis yang begitu ramai dikerahkan untuk menangkap orang memakai baju Bersih. Mengapa tidak dikerahkan untuk membantu melancarkan pergerakan Bersih 2.0? Afterall what they really want to do is marching from one end to the another.

I still remember the students protest in London few months ago. It supposed to be a peace protest but it turn out to be violent and one of them intimidate the royal family. But the real reason why the protest turn violence is because the police start to use violence against the students. The so-called Malay protector (PERKASA) said they will do their own marching to fight Bersih 2.0 in order to protect the peace in Malaysia. Can anyone help me to knock Ibrahim Ali's head hoping that the lose screw in his head fastened?

-If there's one thing BERSIH 2.0 managed to do, for better or worse, is to garner overwhelming attention and politicize Malaysia's non-Malay population beyond any other movement for the past half century. No more, "Melayu tak kisah asal dia tuan", "Cina tak kisah asal dia kaya", or "India tak kisah asal dia senang". Rakyat kisah.-

ask?

Bismillah

I not getting enough sleep the day before yesterday. Didnt sleep all day and have to travel at early morning for a meeting at Loughborough. Talk about busyman yeah.

I was tired even before the journey start but seeing my two train being canceled, you got to be kidding me. Then there I was, waiting patiently at train station for 1 hour.

I manage to ask the guy at the ticket counter and i got another train but need to have some detour. It's alright as long as i can hop on train and reach Loughborough.

Hearing my train have reached Loughborough train station make me feel relieved until the train left the station without I manage to go out. The feeling when hearing whistle being blown for clearance to depart while I still struggling to get out is just 'great'.

John(bukan nama sebenar) : sorry mate, it seems like you have to go to Leicester and come back here.

Me : .....................

Just when I thinking to start saving money, I already have to spend it needlesly.

Arriving at Leicester train station somehow give me courage to ask whether I can go back to Loughborough without buying a new ticket. As I have no valid reason to not be able to stop at Loughborough(except embarassing excuse), I do feel hesitate to ask. I kept thinking what kind of excuse should I say.

Eventually, I did ask the ticket counter and without giving any excuse, I was allowed to go back without buying new ticket. Thank god after that I manage to reach the destination safely.

Looks like I have been write some rubbish about my life that didnt even related to you but me myself did learm one big thing from this incident;

Sometimes, all you need to do is just ask.

Wallahualam.

-- I sent this from my 3 mobile --

Easter break, period.

Bismillah,

It was a hectic week. Assignments just wont stop knocking in my life. Well, it's easter break now and I'm relieved. I can have a break after awhile.

My friends have gone to lot of places as I speak right now. Some have gone to Spain, some go to Turkey, Amsterdam and who knows about the other. I'm still here anyway and not going anywhere afterall. Three assignments needed to be submitted after school open again and that fact really kill my mood for a holiday.

Anyway, I've been to Spain last winter but when I think back about the trip, I can feel that something is missing from the trip. After 4 months, I think I know what's missing, interaction with the local.

We really lack of that part. We kept on pushing to reach new places and see lot of historical places but we dont really interact with the locals there. Yes, we have problem in language and I dont blame anybody but myself for that.

After these years, it started to come to me that it's not what we see but who did we meet is matter in any trip.

I have been in Beirut last autumn and frankly speaking, I miss Beirut much more than I miss Spain. I meet my unknown 'relative' there and subhanallah, the feeling was wonderful and it still fresh in my mind about the feeling that day.

A place is a place.
It cant speak nor it cant move.

The people is what make a place is a special place.

An opinion is just an opinion.
A philosophy is just a philosophy.
A religion is just a theory.

Islam is just a theory but it's the PEOPLE that make Islam is a religion.

p/s:just a clueless rambling at in the middle of the night.

Malaysia dan makanan

Bismillah,

We eat a lot. That's what Malaysian do. We eat for breakfast, 10 am, lunch, 4 pm, dinner and then so-called supper. But we lacked of one thing. Actually we didn't realise one thing;

Then let man look at his food(and how we provide it)
(Abasa:24)

If all Malaysians remember this particular ayah everytime they eat their food, masyaAllah, I'm really sure Malaysia will have such a harmony environment.

Speaking of food, have we ever ponder when we look at baby how they know to suck milk from his mother's breast?

The baby just being born and he automatically know how to fill his stomach.

Dont you guys ever think about it?

Maybe it's too common up to a point you guys never bother about it. Ignorance is a bliss? Think again guys.

Just watch this video and dont say to me you guys didn't think how he able to do that.

Just like Allah says in the quran;

And there is no creature on earth but that upon Allah is its provision, and He knows its place of dwelling and place of storage. All is in a clear register.

(Abasa:6)

Seriously, how the baby kangaroo knows where to go after he was born?

Never stop thinking brother.

Isteri dan kehidupan

Bismillah,

Surprisingly, politics at Malaysia for about a decade has all about sex life of none other, Anwar Ibrahim. Please name me another country that actually beat Malaysia on this one. Anyone knows about it? I really want to know.

Anyway, I dont want to say lot about those thing. I dont even know who right or wrong. Life is too short to just talk about other people sex scandal.


However, I do find it's interesting about his wife who is Wan Azizah. It has been 11 years(more or less) Anwar being accused doing sodomy and now hiring a prostitute. Anwar also have gone to jail for few years ( I cant remember the figure) but still she is still there for him. In fact, I think the reason why Anwar still active right now is because of his wife. Well, just like Ummar bin Khattab said,

"Laki-laki sukses itu dilihat dari dua hal. Yg pertama siapa Ibunya dan yg kedua siapa Istrinya."

We, teenagers are eager to find our partner. Some have already date with each other and some find dating is wrong and choose to marry first. Either way, we never certain the relationship will last forever. I no expert on this one but what I can say is relationship collapsed due to different of interest from both side.

So, find a partner like Anwar get Wan Azizah so that she will be with you when you working for your goal in life but the main question is

What are your goal in life?

Race, Islam and Akmal Alep.

Bismillah,

I have being surprisingly unproductive for the past week due to things I've done for this past week. Of course all of those thing is the thing that will never bring me to Jannah.

Astaghfirullah.

Anyway, I got lot of thing to be said. I've thinking a lot for the couple of days about what's happening now to the world, Malaysia or in my organisation as well. Not really well for any of them.

One of the reason to not thinking a lot because it just bring bad news for me. Ignorance is a blessing? Let talk about this sometimes later.

I have watched one video my friend post on facebook and with His takdir, somehow it's related to what I've been thinking for past couple weeks. With all due respect guys, I can see your point from seerah point of view and I have no intention at all to condem or critict you guys. Perhaps or almost certain your deeds to Allah may be greater than me.

However, this thought is killing me and I have to say this at this blog or else I cant be sleeping at night!! (ok,this is too exaggerating)

Back to what I'm saying, the point is this is only my mere opinion which maybe wrong at all (eventhough I quite confident at it).

For a starter, it's better if we look at population of Malaysia.

Malay 50.4%, Chinese 23.7%, indigenous 11%, Indian 7.1%, others 7.8% (2004 est.)

(taken from CIA-The world Factbook)

For me, it's not very convincing statistic for Malays since they only have a major by only 0.4%. Well, in their defence it's still a big majority against any religion singularly.

But what my major concern is when I try to look at religion convertion rate. Well, someone prefer the word revert to Islam rather than convert to Islam. Let's just use revert to Islam. Surprisingly or rather expected for me, I cant find the data for it. In contrast at Britain, thousands have being reverted to Islam. It maybe a small and insignificant when we compare to the whole population of Britain but we cant deny that it is still a big number.

The problem that we have in Malaysia is Islam is too synonym to Malays to the extend that non-muslim thought that Islam is Malays which is obviously wrong. In Britain, people dont see it that way which make the reversion higher.

Let us not forget Sabah and Sarawak. Just how many Malays at there?

Speaking of which, I remember my friend told me one interesting story. He is Bajau and weirdly, he was denied to enter 'sekolah agama' since he was in standard 2 until he started secondary school but his friend who is Bajau easily got accepted eventhough he just applied it during he was in standard 5. Race vs religion dont you think?

What I'm trying to say is, we got lot of work to do and I didn't agree if we just focusing on one race only because Malaysia in not only consist of Malays. Sorry but I just can't buy it.

Well, I think this is what I believe and it's up to you whether to accept it or reject it. Not really affecting my life after all. But, what do you believe in?

p/s : tahniah pada kawan saya, Akmal Alep kerana mewarisi kerja saya yang tak berapa nak jalan. It was an interesting day for me yesterday.(funny to be exact.hahaha)

What I believe.

After like 5 months, I finally finish reading this book. The book is good but the language somehow is not at my level. Well, in the author defence, the book is disscussing about serious matter thus the complex languange. (or my english is just not good enough)

When I started to read this book, it feel kind off weird when people didn't understand what he's trying to say all this time because I think what he try to say is a simple message and every human by default should agree with it. But on a second thought, things are not that simple and people differ in thought for lot of reason and the reason why I always agree with him might be due to same 'fikrah'. So I started to apply what he saying in this book, 'accepting without judging'.

I learned lot of thing from this book and I highly recomend you to read this book but bear in mind his english is not really simple. One of the thing that he trying to say is why and how Islam is hard to accepted in US and Europe. His argument is very valid and seems like a good solution for me.

Somehow, I think the very same thing can be apply back in Malaysia. We manage to get independance for about 50 years. I live in Malaysia for like 20 years. But how many non-malay friend that I have? How many non-muslim friends that I have? I have become racist without I realise it for 20 years and violated what Quran told me to do. Maybe you guys should be asking yourselves the very same question, how many non-muslim you have in Malaysia?

And I manage to say that Malaysia are multicultural and independent country for 20 years.

Am I pathetic? Yes I do.

Alhamdulillah for allowing me to read this book and open up my horizon and redefine my definition of racist.

Malaysia and Libya

Bismillah,

Couple weeks ago, world are being shocked by 2 uprising in Tunisia and Egypt. Words are spreading about butterfly effest or domino's effect or whatever effect it is. It's a good news in some extent. Now the trend is on Libya.

It's funny though watching how Malaysian reacts about all the cases. I cant remember abput Tunisia but I certainly do remember how they reacted about Egypt.

Lot of emotions and some people go beyond the border to express their feeling. I was so moved with their spirit.

Eh, diorang semangat sebab ramai Malaysian belajar dan tinggal kat sana la.

Seeing how they reacted towards Libya issue makes the statement quite right. Shame on you peoples.

Lot of peoples knows that Libya have worst regime than Egypt.
Gaddafi's family have ruled for over 40 years and no opposition party are allowed to be formed.
No people dare to speak because they will be gone after that.
It just recently the uprising started in Libya but lot of people have died already.

Apehal la diorang nak sibuk2 demonstrasi ni. Aku pegi makan tomyam lagi best.

Yes, you read it right. The statement was come from Malaysian mouth during Egypt issue.
Just imagine, he dare to said those thing when the crisis is related with Malaysian, how about the issue that not directly related with Malaysia?

To those who still feel Tunisia, Egypt or Libya is not their problem, you are right.

Your problem is your AQIDAH.

Weird feeling.

Bismillah,

Semalam melihat di facebook, ternampak status sahabat baru dari mesir yang baru kehilangan nenek dia dan tidak lepas itu, kakaknya pula membuat status yang more or less the same. Semoga dijauhi dari neraka.

Anyway, bukan niat aku untuk berbicara tentang nenek mereka. When I think about myself, same things have occured around 5 years ago to me. Nenek aku meniggal dunia dan what makes my case different from their case is that I've never being told about the incident until few days after that. Maybe it's because i in the middle of examination.

It must be sad isn't it for being left out like that?

To my surprise, I didn't feel that way.
I just feel indifferent.
I thought, 'well, it's just another death. It's normal.'

In my defence, I never being closed with her before. We got language barrier and I always being away from home anyway.

Last year, I lost my auntie due to mysterious sickness. Our relationship can be categorized closed eventhough it's not too closed anyway. I always meet her since our house it's not too far and she always there whenever I visited my other grandmother. I thought I can see her for the last time during summer holiday but she couldn't wait for me. She died when I just started spring exam.

When I speak to my father, he tried to console me and he said stuff like dont worry and dont think too much about it. It's normal isn't it?

But it's not needed actually.

I just feel indifferent. Well I do feel sad for her daughter and son but not for her.
It's just another death.

I actually dont understand whether lot of people feels like me or is it only me?
I wonder how will I fell when I lost my parents or one of my siblings?

Will I think it's just another death again?
Is it bad for having this kind of thought anyway?

Or is it I actually do feel sad but I just dont realized it?
Astaghfirullah
Astaghfirullah
Astaghfirullah

I'm moved.

Aku sangat susah untuk memuji satu movie (unless movie action macam IP Man atau Transformer which I more amazed with the graphic rather than about the movie itself). Antara movie yang aku rasa menarik ialah life is beautiful atau pursuit of happiness. Yet I still failed to find a movie that I considered great or even good which produced by Malaysia.

'Alangkah lucunya (negri ini)' bukan hanya movie biasa.
Ia tidak perlukan lawak-lawak murahan untuk mendapatkan penonton.
Ia mampu menggetarkan jiwa orang yang sebelum ini ignorance pada persekitaran negara.
Ia adalah masterpiece.

Bila agaknya Malaysia mampu mengeluarkan movie yang tidak memerlukan lawak bodoh atau cerita cinta yang sia-sia seperti movie ini?

Respect.

Bismillah,

I used to hold to one principal regarding respect.

We dont ask for respect but we gain it.

I hold it tightly so that if someone didn't respect me, I can think that may be I haven't done enough. But sometimes I hold the principal too tight that I didn't respect other people if I think they haven't done up to my standard. Or in other words, if someone didn't do their work correctly, I wouldn't be able to respect him regardless their age or status.

However, life isn't just black and white. I knew this statement ages ago but until recently I started to grasp what the meaning of it. I have to lessen the grip of my principal and started to think bigger rather than only about myself.

We are all know about Hassan al-Banna. There is one time when he is just about 20-30 years old, there one old guy meet him at his office and started to scold him because the old guy's son start to join Ikhwanul Muslimin. For me that was ridicolous and Hassan Al-Banna got ton of reasons to defend himself or even scold the old guy back. Well, to cut things short, when the old guy finish all his nonsense talk and about to going back to his home, surprisingly Hassan Al-Banna help to take the old guy shoes and put it in front of the old guyso that he can wear it easily. After that, there is no scolding from the old guy anymore.

Do ever heard about PKS( Partai Keadilan Sejahtera)? Well PKS is the 4th largest party in Indonesia(according to last year statistic). We will get back to PKS later.

There is one time in Indonesia, a car hit the car in front of him. If according to our sense, if we are at the car on the front, surely we will feel irritated because it's likely the back car is the one who didn't pay attention on the road. However, the front car driver stepped down from the car and started to say sorry and ask if everything is alright. He even ask if there is anything that he should pay to the back car. Seeing the attitude of the front car driver, the back car driver say it's nothing and the problem solved. When the back car driver enter his car, the old guy that sat in his car just say,'that guy surely from PKS. No doubt about that.'.

It's natural for us to not respecting others if there didn't do the right thing in our eyes but when we able to keep our akhlak and just give our respect to them, it's just a whole new level.

The level that can guide us to Jannah.

We might have a brilliant idea but if our words aren't brilliant, the idea is nothing.

Oh, I forgot to mention that Hassan Al-Banna is the leader of the Ikhwanul Muslimin at that time.

Coming soon

Simple fact.

Bismillah,

Semalam aku tersentak dengan satu perkara yang sangat simple but yet I seems to forget it. Or in other words, I seems to not realizing it.

Apabila terjadi satu peperangan di mana-mana tempat, secara normalnya manusia (termasuk aku) akan cenderung untuk melihat statistik kematian. We actually dont really care about the number who was injured.

I was talking to one of the doctor who has been in Palestine and he told me that Israel tactic is always to aim for maximising the injury but not to kill the palestinian. For instance, the drone that being used can shoot accurately the pen that in your pocket but they intentionally target the leg of the Palestinians. This will make the Palestinian couldn't use their leg anymore and when other people start to condemn them for waht they did, they will simply show the statistic of the death only.

Simple but yet most of us seems to not realizing it.

I wonder how to view the statistic of the casualties in the Egypt.

One way or another.

Bismillah,

Kita sibuk berfikir tentang apa yang akan dimakan sebentar lagi,
Kita sibuk berbincang kelab bola sepak mana yang akan menang.
Kita sibuk melihat pakaian mana lagi yang perlu dibeli.

Dan kita terus sibuk memikirkan bagaimana hendak memenuhkan perut dan nafsu kita.

Ironiknya, kita sering mengimpikan Islam akan naik semula dengan usaha kita.

Things to reflect for myself.


We will get our right, one way or another.

Egypt: lesson for me.

Bismillah,

Sebenarnya agak lambat untuk aku memberi pendapat terhadap uprising di Mesir. Anyway, I have been busy with examination period which literally consume most of my time. It's hard actually taking Aerospace Engineering and didn't have a real study group but let's just leave this things to a side first. After all the Egyptian face much more tough test compare with me. More than 30 years actually they facing this hard test.

Aku menganggap semua orang tahu tentang kebangkitan orang Mesir dan segalanya bermula di Tunisia. Well, not all of it actually. Ia bermula sejak puluhan tahun dahulu. Rakyat Mesir ditindas dan diperbodoh-bodohkan oleh kuasa pemerintahan sedangkan jika kita di Mesir, literally kita seolah-olah sedang menghirup ilmu Islam. The knowledge is in the air. Masjid berdekatan antara satu sama lain dan kita boleh belajar ilmu agama almost like no charge at all. Namun kadar pengangguran di Mesir tinggi. Kadar kemiskinan juga tinggi sedangkan perkara ini tidak patut berlaku.

Ironiknya, ada pihak yang menuduh Ikhwanul Muslimin(IM)/ Muslim Brotherhood yang memulakan kebangkitan ini dan of course IM menafikannya kerana pemerintahan Hosni Mubarak yang memulakan segala perkara ini. IM basically have nothing to do with this uprising. Tetapi kenapa IM secara tiba-tiba menjadi satu isu hangat dan begitu banyak fitnah yang dilemparkan kepada IM?

Well, IM have been the strongest opposition for Hosni Mubarak administration and for obvious reason, IM have been the all time favourite for the citizen in Egypt. If Hosni Mubarak step down from his position, eventhough IM didn't start this uprising, the whole world knows(at least US and Israel) that IM will be the one replacing Hosni Mubarak. No doubt about that eventhough IM did not start the uprising and they said they did not want the power but they only want the true democracy.

This is the only fact that holding Mubarak from stepping down from his position.

If IM get to hold Egypt, give them 5 years at most and you will see a new Egypt. This is the other fact that have been kept by the Egyptian and keep them stand up against Hosni Mubarak regime.

Enough of Egypt. Back to Malaysia.

Tidak dinafikan pemerintahan Malaysia kurang elok dan pelbagai tuduhan-tuduhan rasuah dilontarkan pada pemerintah yang mainly diwakili oleh Barisan Nasional. Aku mengaku yang tuduhan itu kelihatan seolah-olah betul. Perkara ini juga yang dipercayai rakyat.
Pemerintahan Malaysia juga tidak memenuhi kriteria dalam Islam untuk dipanggil negara Islam.

Bagi aku, it's only the matter of time kerajaan Malaysia akan berubah memandangkan barisan pembangkang yang semakin aktif dan kesedaran rakyat. Tidak dilupakan facebook, twitter dan pelbagai blog yang menjadi alternatif rakyat selain TV3. It's only the matter of time.

Persoalannya, mampukah kita menjadi seperti IM?
Mampukah kita untuk menjadi tempat rujukan sekiranya terjadi perubahan politik di Malaysia?
Kita tidak mengejar pangkat.
Kita tidak mengejar nama perdana menteri.

Apa yang kita impikan ialah negara islam. Regardless who started it but we want to be involved in constructing it.

Untuk itu kita perlu menjadi figure yang dikenali ramai atas amal kita. Amal yang baik of course. Sama seperti IM. Tidak mungkin rakyat akan mempercayai kita sekiranya secara tiba-tiba kita muncul ketika perubahan politik berlaku dan kita ingin mentadbir negara. Sekurang-kurangnya akal yang waras tidak mungkin percaya pada orang seperti itu.

Aku simpulkan perkara yang kita perlu buat untuk mencapai seperti apa yang IM sudah capai dalam 3 perkataan;

Ukhuwah Teras Kegemilangan.

I can see Wawasan 2020. Can you?


p/s: for those who cant really understand for the second part, I talk about IKRAM actually.

To the tyrant of the world

‎"Hey you, the unfair tyrants.
You the lovers of the darkness.
You the enemies of life.
You've made fun of innocent people's wounds; and your palm covered with their blood.
You kept walking while you were deforming the charm of existence and growing seeds of sadness in their land.

Wait, don't let the spring, the clearness of the sky and the shine of the morning light fool you.
Because the darkness, the thunder rumble and the blowing of the wind are coming toward you from the horizon.
Beware because there is a fire underneath the ash.

Who grows thorns will reap wounds.
You've taken off heads of people and the flowers of hope; and watered the cure of the sand with blood and tears until it was drunk.
The blood's river will sweep you away and you will be burned by the fiery storm."

- Abo Al Qassim Al Shabbi (Tunisian Poet)

Sudan oh Sudan

Bismillah

Do you know where Sudan is?
Do you know what happen there right know?

If you know nothing about it and you are a muslim, you should ashamed of yourself.

If you know about it, what is your opinion about it?
Are you sure your opinion is correct?

I have some opinion about it.

At least I have the same thought as they are about Sudan.(click here)

Jamaah centric vs Ummah centric

Salam,

Satu artikel lama tulisan Ust. Mazlee Malik. Semoga bermanfaat.

Ketika saya pernah ditanyakan oleh salah seorang siswa, "Ustaz ni jemaah JIM ke?". Saya segera membalas, "Tidak, saya ahli jemaah Muslimin". Dia bertanya, "Jemaah baru ke tu?". Saya katakan kepadanya, "Tidak, ia telah wujud semenjak zaman Rasulullah S.A.W lagi". Beliau tidak berpuas hati, "Itu saya tahu, tapi kan ustaz ahli JIM". Saya membalas sambil tersenyum, "Ya, saya ahli JIM, ahli Darul Fitrah, ahli Persatuan Ulama Malaysia, ahli Muslim Profesional Forum, ahli Pertubuhan al-Nidaa, rakan kepada ABIM, Ricoi, Hunafa, Accin, US, PAS, keADILan, UMNO dan macam-macam lagi "jemaah".

Siswa tersebut menggaru kepalanya kebingungan, terus dia bertanya lagi, "Jadi ustaz tidak berpendirianlah...atas pagar lah ye?". Soalannya kali ini benar-benar membuatkan saya tergelak besar. Saya sekali lagi mengatakan kepadanya, "Anda masih lagi hidup di zaman 70'an, 80'an dan 90'an...masih lagi di takuk pemikiran Jemaah Centric"

Jemaah Centric

Ya, sememangnya pemikiran jemaah centric yang mendominasi pemikiran pencinta dakwah dan juga pejuang gerakan Islam di Malaysia selama lebih tiga dekad lalu. Impaknya amat ketara, selain daripada kesan positif yang mendorong kepada banyak perubahan di Malaysia, pemikiran jemaah centric juga menimbulkan banyak kesan negatif. Perbalahan, perpecahan, pergeseran hati, malah di sesetengah tempat membawa kepada pergaduhan.

'Jemaah ana lebih tua!', 'jemaah ana lebih tarbiah', 'jemaah ana lebih memperjuangkan sunnah', 'jemaah aku lebih agresif", 'jemaah saya lebih memperjuangkan khilafah', 'jemaah saya ada Imam Mahdi!' . Itulah di antara slogan-slogan yang sering berkumandang selama lebih tiga dekad di Malaysia di kalangan ahli pelbagai pertubuhan Islam. Akhirnya masing-masing tenggelam di dalam menegakkan jemaah masing-masing yang dianggap lebih utama, lebih awla, lebih "asalah" (tulen), lebih hebat dan lebih segala-galanya daripada jemaah-jemaah yang lain. Kesimpulannya, jemaah centric adalah satu pola pemikiran yang lebih banyak membawa kepada perpecahan daripada penyatuan!

Lebih menyayat hati lagi ialah apabila para pendukung jemaah-jemaah yang berjuang demi nama jemaah masing-masing ini menggunakan dalil-dalil yang dipengaruhi oleh tafsiran nafsu mereka untuk menegakkan kebenaran "yang mereka dakwa". Contohnya dalil-dalil yang menyeru supaya umat Islam bersatu ditafsirkan agar bersatu di bawah satu jemaah, iaitu jemaah yang mereka perjuangkan sahaja. Begitu juga hadis-hadis yang menyeru agar umat Islam melazimi jemaah (iaitu kaum Muslimin) sering ditafsirkan sebagai bersatu di bawah "jemaahnya" sahaja dan bukannya jemaah lain. Hadis yang menghalalkan darah golongan yang meninggalkan jemaah Muslimin (meninggalkan agama Islam) juga ditafsirkan oleh sesetengah golongan yang taasub jemaah sebagai dalil untuk menghalalkan darah mereka yang bukan dari jemaah mereka.

Tidak hairanlah di zaman 90'an, antara buku-buku "Haraki" yang timbul adalah berkaitan usaha menonjolkan "kebenaran" jemaah masing-masing. 'Haram ta'adud jamaah' (haram wujudnya lebih dari satu jemaah) dan 'wajib hanya ada satu jemaah di bumi Malaysia' menjadi slogan yang suci bagi sesetengah golongan seolah-olah menafikan kebaikan jemaah lain. Gejala takfir, menyesatkan, memulaukan dan juga memperkecil-kecilkan kumpulan lain juga menjadi satu "sunnah" sesetengah golongan pelampau pendukung pemikiran jemaah centric. Keadaan yang lebih parah dapat disaksikan di IPT yang menjadi gelanggang tarik menarik pelajar-pelajar baru oleh jemaah-jemaah ini. Di luar Timur Tengah keadaan semakin serius sehingga ada insiden tumbuk menumbuk dan juga pergaduhan demi mempertahankan jemaah masing-masing. Begitulah impak buruk pemikiran jemaah centric ini yang telah menjadi satu fitnah yang melanda umat Islam.

Maka, apakah penyelesaiannya? Apakah jemaah-jemaah yang wujud perlu dileburkan menjadi satu jemaah yang unggul sahaja? Dengan itu umat Islam semua akan bersatu di bawah satu panji "ummah" sahaja tanpa khilaf dan perpecahan!

Bunyinya begitu indah, hakikatnya slogan-slogan tersebutlah yang akhirnya membawa kepada perpecahan yang lebih teruk. Slogan "kembali kepada satu jemaahlah yang telah menyebabkan krisis di antara jemaah berterusan, dari dulu, kini dan selamanya. Mengapa? Ini kerana tabiat manusia itu berbeza, gaya pemikirannya berlainan, tahap pemikiran tidak sama, dan manusia itu sendiri secara fizikalnya berbeza-beza. Perkara inilah yang telah disentuh oleh Dr. Yusuf al-Qaradhawi di dalam bukunya "al-Sahwah al-lslamiyyah baina al-Ikhtilaf al-Masyru' wa tafarruq al-mazmum"

Pemikiran "Ummah Centric"

Tiada salahnya kewujudan jemaah-jemaah selagi mereka berpaksikan pemikiran "Ummah Centric" dan bukannya "Jemaah Centric". Tidak salah wujudnya jemaah-jemaah selagi ia wujud sebagai organisasi untuk melaksanakan kerja-kerja dakwah dan perubahan secara kolektif, dan tidak lebih daripada organisasi yang menghimpunkan ahli-ahli yang mempunyai persamaan dan keserasian untuk mencapai objektif yang sama. Tiada salah juga berjemaah selagi ia membawa kepada penyatuan tenaga untuk melakukan kerja-kerja Islam di bawah satu organisasi yang tersusun kemas selaras dengan seruan Allah SWT: "Sesungguhnya Allah menyukai mereka yang berperang di jalan-Nya di dalam satu barisan, seolah-olah mereka sebuah bangunan yang kukuh"(al-Saff: ayat 3).

Jangan lebih daripada itu hendaknya. Jika adanya unsur 'jemaah saya yang utama', 'Jemaah saya yang paling hebat', 'jemaah saya yang paling hebat tarbiah', 'jemaah saya yang paling sunnah", 'jemaah saya yang paling ulama' dan lain-lain kredibiliti yang mengatasi kesatuan ummah, maka perpecahan akan segera timbul.

Pemikiran 'Ummah Centric' perlu dihayati oleh seniua umat Islam seperti mana ia dihayati oleh umat terdahulu. Bukankah Allah SWT berfirman: "Sesungguhnya umat ini adalah umat yang satu, dan Aku adalah Tuhanmu, maka sembahlah aku." (al-Anbiya: ayat 92), dan juga firman Allah SWT, "Sesungguhnya mukmin tu bersaudara, maka damaikanlah dua saudaramu (yang bertelagah)." (al-Hujuraat: ayat 10).

Begitu juga dengan hadis-hadis yang menekankan kepentingan ukhuwah dan kesatuan umat. Pemikiran ummatik inilah yang semestinya mencorakkan cara berfikir, cara berukhuwah, cara bertindak dan juga cara menilai sesuatu. Janganlah ada pilih bulu dalam berukhuwah, jika seseorang itu satu jemaah, maka itulah "sahabat", "ikhwah", "puak" atau golongan kita. Orang dari jemaah lain pula diberikan layanan kelas kedua, hanya kerana mereka bukan "ahli jemaah" kita.

Dalam menuntut ilmu juga begitu juga hendaknya, dan bukannya sikap mengikuti atau mendengar atau menghadiri hanya kuliah-kuliah dan kelas-kelas pengajian "oghe-oghe kito" sahaja dan menutup telinga dan pintu hati pada orang-orang dari jemaah lain. Dalam membaca begitu juga, Janganlah hanya membaca literasi "harakah" yang versi "fikrah kita" sahaja dan memandang sepi literasi hasil tulisan orang-orang dari kumpulan lain, walhal kemungkinan apa yang ada pada orang lain itu lebih bermanfaat dan lebih baik.

Pemikiran ummatik ini perlu disemadikan di dalam hati para pencinta Islam dan pejuang-pejuang syariat Islam agar segala usaha dirasakan sebagai tanggungjawab bersama.

Jika beroleh kemenangan, ia tidak akan dimonopoli oleh golongan-golongan tertentu sahaja, tetapi dirasakan sebagai milik semua. Jika ada kelemahan terhadap usaha orang lain, pihak yang nampak kelemahan tersebut, walaupun dari jemaah lain, akan segera membantu untuk memperbaikinya dan bukan menghentam atau menjadikannya sebagai hujah untuk menjatuhkannya. Pemikiran ummatik juga akan membuatkan semua jemaah melihat jemaah-jemaah lain sebagai rakan setugas, rakan sepasukan dan juga rakan seperjuangan, yang walaupun lain gaya bekerja, tetapi tetap di bawah satu majikan yang sama.

Pemikiran ummatik juga akan menguatkan lagi usaha-usaha untuk tajdid, islah dan dakwah. Sinergi di antara jemaah di atas usaha-usaha bersama akan lebih banyak dan lebih memberikan impak. Tanpa prejudis, tanpa kebencian, tanpa hasad,tanpa fitnah memfitnah, tanpa jatuh menjatuhkan, tanpa hentam menghentam, dan yang penting lagi tanpa merasakan orang di luar jemaah kita adalah "orang lain". Jika semua pendukung jemaah-jemaah yang wujud dapat merasakan bahawa semua jemaah-jemaah dan juga orang-orang lain yang mungkin tidak berjemaah sebagai saudara seummah mereka, di waktu itu, insya-Allah keberkatan dan bantuan Allah akan turun. Hal ini perlu dimulakan segera, bermula dengan pemikiran dan juga hati!

Fiqh Ikhtilaf

Selain daripada berfikiran ummah centric, para pencinta Islam juga wajib menghayati flqh dan juga adab berikhtilaf. Kata-kata Imam al-Syafi'i yang berbunyi : "Pandanganku adalah benar menurut pendapatku, tetapi berkemungkinan silap, dan pendapat lawanku adalah silap pada pandanganku, tetapi berkemungkinan mengandungi kebenaran". Kata-kata al-Marhum Rashid Redha yang kemudiannya dipopularkan oleh Hassan al-Banna juga merupakan satu kaedah emas yang boleh dijadikan penawar di dalam menangani masalah perpecahan disebabkan pemikiran jemaah centric.

Beliau berkata: "Kita bekerjasama di dalam perkara yang kita sepakati dan kita berlapang dada di dalam apa yang kita perselisihkan"

Di dalam berikhtilaf semua pihak perlulah ikhlas dan benar-benar meletakkan Islam sebagai matlamat mereka dan bukannya jemaah atau fikrah. Bunyinya seperti mudah, namun pelaksanaannya tidak semudah diucapkan. Sekali lagi ia perlu bermula dari hati, dari pemikiran dan juga dari roh" ummah centric".

* Centric membawa maksud : paksi, jemaah centric membawa maksud pemikiran berpaksikan jemaah, manakala ummah centric pula membawa maksud, pemikiran berpaksikan konsep satu ummah.